gossip girl 12 终结- 第42部分

“Was　that　too　fast　for　you？”　Nate　turned　around；　his　brow　furrowed　in　concern。　His　arms　were　still　circled　tightly　around　her　waist。　She　shook　her　head。

She　knew　what　she　wanted　to　do　when　they　got　back　to　the　house　tonight。　She　was　a　virgin；　and　had　been　waiting　for　the　right　person　and　the　right　time。　Waverly　was　such　a　small　school　and　everyone　knew　everyone’s　business。　Soon　after　she　got　there；　she　realized　that　when　she　did　lose　her　virginity；　she　wanted　it　to　be　with　someone　special；　someone　she　trusted。　Someone　like　Nate。

“Hey　hornyheads！”　Serena　called　cheerfully　as　she　coasted　down　the　hill　by　herself　on　a　red　toboggan。　Jenny　broke　away　guiltily　and　waved。

“Want　to　race？”　Nate　called　to　Serena；　a　devilish　gleam　in　his　eye　as　he　grabbed　the　toboggan　rope　and　began　pulling　it　back　up　the　hill。

“I　want　to　race；”　Blair　called　from　the　other　side　of　the　hill；　where　she　and　Chuck　were　setting　up　their　own　sled。　She　couldn’t　believe　little　Jenny　Humphrey　was　getting　all　cozy　with　Nate　in　front　of　everyone。　Who　the　fuck　did　she　think　she　was？

“You　want　to　steer；　or　should　I？”　Chuck　asked；　gesturing　to　the　sled。

“I　don’t　care。”　Blair　plunked　down　on　the　toboggan。　She　crossed　her　arms；　then　uncrossed　them；　remembering　she　wasn’t　supposed　to　care　about　Nate　anymore。　Chuck　sat　down　behind　her；　stretching　out　his　long　legs　and　crossing　them　over　hers。

“Actually；　I’ve　had　enough。”　Blair　stood　up　abruptly。　“I’m　wet　and　freezing　and　I’m　going　inside；”　she　huffed；　stomping　toward　the　garage。　What　twenty…year…olds　sledded　for　fun？　Serena’s　lame　boyfriend　had　the　right　idea　to　drink　wine　in　the　library　instead　of　ing　sledding。　Maybe　she’d　go　join　him。

Jealousy　loves　pany。

when　the　lights　go　out

Blair　stormed　into　the　sunken　living　room　and　flicked　on　the　Tiffany　lamp　on　the　end　table。　Nothing　happened。　“Don’t　tell　me　the　fucking　power　is　out。”

“Do　you　know　where　the　fuse　box　is？”　Chuck　asked；　ing　up　behind　her。

“Hey。”　Dan　emerged　from　the　library。　“Do　you　know　where　the　fuse　box　is？”　he　asked。

Blair　shook　her　head。　Why　did　boys　care　so　much　about　fuse　boxes？

“I’m　going　to　bed；”　she　announced　haughtily。

Dan　nodded；　squinting　past　Blair　into　the　darkness。　He　could　hear　Serena；　Jenny；　and　Nate　taking　off　their　boots　in　the　kitchen。　Dan　suddenly　felt　guilty　for　abandoning　them。　He　and　Vanessa　had　been　texting　for　the　past　few　hours；　volleying　remember…whens　and　would…you…rathers　back　and　forth。　He　hadn’t　even　noticed　that　the　power　had　gone　off　until　Blair　stomped　in。　It　made　him　worried　that　there　might　have　been　other　things　he　hadn’t　noticed。

Like　that　his　little　sister’s　all　grown　up？

“I　think　we　should　all　go　to　bed；”　Blair　added；　stamping　out　the　memory　of　Nate’s　hands　around　Jenny’s　waist　on　the　hill。　It　was　the　last　thing　she　wanted　to　think　about　right　now。

Upstairs；　Blair　took　a　long　hot　shower　by　candlelight；　trying　to　let　the　water　wash　away　her　nagging　frustrations。　Nate　had　looked　so　happy　tonight；　so　different　from　the　tormented　Nate　of　last　winter。　When　she　closed　her　eyes　she　saw　him　laughing；　tugging　a　toboggan　up　a　hill。　She　saw　him　lobbing　snowballs　at　Serena。　Hugging　Jenny。　She　saw　him　smiling；　his　green　eyes　glittering。　She　stepped　out　of　the　shower　and　toweled　off；　pulling　on　a　Cosabella　tank　top　and　shorts　set　before　heading　into　the　bedroom。　Chuck　was　already　asleep；　his　breathing　deep　and　even。

She　climbed　into　bed　and　lay　next　to　Chuck；　turning　over　so　she　was　lying　on　her　side。　She　couldn’t　get　fortable。　Lying　next　to　Chuck　didn’t　feel　right。　Instead；　she　found　herself　thinking　about　a　certain　attic　bedroom。

Maybe　she　and　Nate　needed　to　talk。　Or　kiss。　One　more　time。　One　last　time。　Just　to　say　goodbye；　so　she　could　get　rid　of　all　the　confusing　feelings　swirling　around　her　brain。　So　that　she　could　finally　enter　her　grown…up　life；　without　any　worries　about　her　past　ing　back　to　haunt　her。　She　swung　her　legs　out　of　bed；　grabbed　a　candle　from　the　antique　oak　dresser；　and　headed　for　the　door。

Next　door；　Serena　lay　awake　in　bed。　Dan　was　sleeping　with　his　cell　phone　clutched　to　his　chest　like　a　tiny　electronic　life　preserver。　She　felt　alone　with　her　jumbled　thoughts。

Being　outside　with　Nate　had　been　so　fun；　so　natural。　She　wasn’t　playful　when　she　was　with　Dan。　She　always　hesitated　for　a　half　second　before　she　said　anything；　worried　she’d　disappoint　him　by　not　sounding　smart。　She　hated　worrying。

She　wondered　what　Nate　was　doing　upstairs。　He’d　seemed　disappointed　when　Blair　wanted　to　go　inside；　like　he　wished　he　could　stay　outside　and　play　forever。　And　that　was　what　Serena　loved　most　about　him。

She　swung　her　feet　onto　the　cold　floor。

There　was　no　way　in　hell　Jenny　was　even　going　to　try　to　sleep。　The　whole　evening—playing　in　the　snow　as　if　she　were　a　heroine　in　a　nineteenth…century　novel；　ing　back　to　a　power　outage；　feeling　Nate’s　warm　breath　on　her　cold　skin—had　been　so　romantic。　And　there　was　no　reason　the　evening　had　to　e　to　an　end。　She　pulled　on　a　camisole　and　the　leggings　she’d　worn　on　her　RISD　tour。　It　wasn’t　ideal；　but　there　was　no　way　she　would　go　upstairs　to　lose　her　virginity　in　one　of　Blair’s　discarded　T…shirts。　The　makeshift　jammies　would　have　to　do。

Okay；　Jenny　whispered　to　herself。　She　felt　excited　and　nervous　all　at　the　same　time。　She　creaked　the　door　open　and　stepped　into　the　dark　hallway。

Blair　climbed　up　the　rickety　attic　stairs；　a　Tocca　candle　in　one　hand。　It　was　fig　scented　and　perfect　for　the　bedside；　but　not　very　helpful　in　casting　light　on　her　path。　She　looked　up　when　she　heard　a　sound　ing　from　the　door　at　the　bottom　of　the　stairs。

Serena。　She　wore　one　of　her　ancient　C&C　California　T…shirts　from　high　school；　without　a　bra　underneath。　The　candlelight　flickered　over　her　pale　hair　and　perfect　features；　making　her　look　more　beautiful　than　ever。

“What　are　you　doing？”　Blair　whispered；　balancing　precariously　on　the　stair。

Serena　sucked　in　her　breath。　What　was　Blair　doing　here？　“I　was　going　to　the　bathroom。　Dan　was　taking　a　shower　in　ours　and　I　remembered　there　was　a　bathroom　up　here；”　she　lied；　shrugging　nonchalantly。　“What　are　you　doing？”　she　asked；　even　though　she　had　a　feeling　she　knew　the　answer　to　that　question。

“I　was　making　sure　the　window　upstairs　was　closed；”　Blair　shot　back。　At　least　that　made　more　sense　than　Serena’s　ridiculous　lie。　It　was　so　fucking　obvious　Serena　was　trying　to　sneak　into　Nate’s　room。

“Do　you　need　help？　With　the　window？”　Serena　asked；　arching　an　eyebrow。

“I’ll　just　text　Nate　to　get　it。　No　use　waking　everyone　up。　And　there’s　a　bathroom　downstairs。　I　can　show　you；”　Blair　challenged。

Serena　paused。　Finally；　she　nodded。

Blair　escorted　Serena　down　the　hallway　like　a　policewoman　with　a　petty　criminal；　standing　sentry　at　the　door。　She　heard　Serena　turn　on　the　faucet　before　emerging　a　few　seconds　later。

“Good　night；”　the　two　girls　said；　daring　each　other　to　be　the　first　to　turn　back　and　climb　the　attic　stairs。

Blair　didn’t　budge。　It　was　her　goddamn　house。　She　was　going　to　stay　up　all　night　if　that　was　what　it　took。　“Good　night；”　Blair　said　again；　more　pointedly。

“See　you　tomorrow　morning；”　Serena　said　before　heading　reluctantly　down　the　hallway。　Would　Blair　go　back　to　Nate’s　bedroom　after　she　left？

Or　would　someone　else　get　there　first？

things　that　go　bump　in　the　night

Nate　had　fallen　asleep　quickly。　He　was　having　a　dream　about　chasing　Blair　and　Serena　all　over　Central　Park　but　never　being　able　to　catch　them　when　the　door　to　his　room　creaked　open。

“It’s　me。”　A　girl’s　voice　pulled　him　out　of　his　soupy；　half…conscious　state。　Nate　blinked　to　adjust　his　eyes　to　the　light。　The　girl　held　a　candle　that　cast　a　glow　on　the　ecru　walls；　making　it　impossible　to　see　her　clearly。　The　figure　was　too　short　to　be　Serena’s；　but　the　voice　was　too　breathy　to　be　Blair’s。

Nate　sat　up　and　ran　his　hand　through　his　hair。　“I　can’t　really　see　you；”　he　said。　Jenny　held　the　candle　closer　to　her　face；　casting　her　skin　with　a　warmish　golden　glow。　She　wore　a　pair　of　tight　black　leggings　and　a　lacy　black　tank　top。　“Here；　you’ll　get　cold；”　he　said；　holding　up　the　flannel　covers　and　patting　a　spot　on　the　mattress　next　to　him。

Jenny　placed　the　candle　on　the　nightstand　and　tried　to　smile　seductively。　Her　heart　was　hammering　in　her　chest　and　she　wanted　to　scream　with　excitement。　It　was　happening。　It　was　finally　happening！

Easy　there；　tiger。

She　climbed　into　the　bed　next　to　Nate　and　pulled　the　flannel　forter　over　their　legs。　Their　hips　were　touching；　and　she　could　smell　the　scent　of　fabric　softener　and　shave　gel。　His　hair　was　still　damp　from　the　snow　outside。

She　turned　and　kissed　him；　enjoying　the　feel　of　his　stubbly　cheek　against　her　smooth　one。　Outside；　the　storm　was　still　raging；　but　in　the　attic；　next　to　Nate；　she　felt　cozy　and　warm　and　safe。

Nate　kissed　her　back　hungrily。　Her　tiny；　curvy　body　felt　so　good　in　his　arms。　He　edged　down　one　strap　of　her　lacy　camisole　and　kissed　her　milky　white　shoulder。　It　felt　so　nice；　so　familiar　to　be　with　Jenny；　even　though　the　last　time　they’d　hooked　up　was　three　years　ago。　But　that　was　the　thing　about　Jenny。　She　was　fortable；　soft；　sweet；　easy。

Watch　it—no　girl